My family and drinking partners; Aunts, sister and baby cousin.
When I was in Poland, I drank with my family every single night. I'm not a big fan of hard liquor, I enjoy wine and beer or softer drinks like Baileys and Amarula. There were always plenty at my aunt's house. I must note here that drinking with your parents, is like a 'coming of age' ritual. Before I go any farther; drinking regularly and alcoholism are two different things. My grand father was an alcoholic, he was a soldier, a quiet man with a quick temper, a man that internalized his emotions and never spoke about them. For over two decades, he abused his body and let alcohol rule his life. My grand mother stuck by him, until finally, he healed. When I was born, my grand father was already sober. I never saw him as anyone but a great man I will always love and respect. My grand mother, my Babcia, has an aversion to alcohol. She knows what it can do; if you bury your emotions in a bottle of vodka, it will eventually bury you. She doesn't like when we drink around her, her bright blue eyes crease with worry.
Moderately, alcohol 'Kokol' adds fun to an evening, or if you're an avid wine drinker, it can complement a meal and give it more flavor. Last night, as we celebrated the New Year at my friends' Sulli and Yannick's house, we witnessed many sides of alcohol.
An argument erupted, and because both parties were intoxicated, it took a bigger connotation than it would have if same words were spoken when sober. In fact, these words would have never been spoken if alcohol didn't lower every body's inhibitions.
Overall, alcohol added fun to our night; we had Wii tournaments (I got my butt kicked in boxing, but I won a tennis match. ha), we had chicha, good food, good music and most importantly good company. I shouldn't have mixed my drinks so much, I did get teary towards the end of the night when I decided to smooth things over with my ex-lover; we have friends in common and although we decided previously (for the sake of our future relationships) to no longer keep contact, we bump into each other sometimes. I wanted to start my year with a clean slate, and although I didn't get to the bottom of everything that happened between us, I am willing to accept that I will never get my answers. I don't think he has them, and I no longer feel they are important to me.
I can't believe it but I can (finally) say this; My heart and my mind are at ease. They aren't longing for a lost love or a past life...I am so excited about this New Year. Big things popping ;-)
I'm starting out my New Year Resolution. While on my way to work (Yes, I work today, until 9 pm) I realized that doing something creative, greener, compassionate once a day isn"t as easy as I first thought it would be. I mean, I brought my coffee thermos to work today, therefore, I will not use any paper cups, but does this really qualify as 'greening' my life? I don't think so.
I will start with a small step; today, I will write my post, edit my short story 'Wives and Lovers', and I will make my first Indian Chai tea, the 'proper' way with Cardamom pods and Ginger root.
Snall steps ;-)