Feeling like Pluto.
I am surrounded by my fellow celestial bodies but I am all frost. I'm so far away, no one can reach me; Mars scolds me with its hot fire, Jupiter speaks a foreign language while Saturn keeps me at bay, with its rings of ice.
Somehow, Sometimes, I lose my alignment & I follow a movement of my own.
It's dark, it's novel, it's frightening, to follow a path you have accustomed to your own needs & desires.
Also, It feels lonely being Pluto, it would be so simpler to conform & align with my sister planets. All I want, is to find my place in the Universe.
I am melancholic today. Perhaps, it is the rain, the clouded sky or my intense toothache, or the sordid realization that I have less & less in common with the people in my life?
Or maybe, It is because...
I met someone.
His eyes are: Ice, cut glass, summer sky, Polish sea, sapphire, jazz, airhead candy, winter storms, Debussy's Clair de lune.
His mind is like iron & fire, metaphysically outrageous, a constant stream of collision. Like a well, which has no bottom; how much can you learn, pry from its depth?
He makes me feel small, in a most exhilarating way.
He offers a challenge; seeds can germinate, I will be the garden, him-the cultivator.
Perhaps. Raspberries, tulips, sunflowers will blossom.
The problem is; He has someone in his life. I am unsure of their bond, thick or thin, wandering or strong. Either ways, it is not my place to destroy others' happiness, not my right to steal another's loved one. I don't want that kind of Karma stalking me, haunting me. &, how arrogant of me, to assume I have the power, if I chose, to break them apart.
I also believe that, sometimes, life isn't black or white. There are situations that are 'grey', where rules fly out the window, where 1+1 never equals 2, & in which, the best one shall win.
Should I go for it, or at least build a friendship, let time unfold sentiment?